BeautyScope 460 : Treehugger

late evening sunlight

life long friends stand highlighted

happily entwined

5/10/2024
 

 

BeautyScope 459 : Grass warriors

shining swords 

press upwards

through rock

fed by rays of sun

21/9/24

New Life

Greetings to a new season.

Yes, it’s Spring! (Here in the Southern Hemisphere)

I am feeling all full of new life with the warming weather and new growth.

I am reminded of one way I try and make myself feel awake and full of life, daily. On our daily walk we encounter a set of stairs which takes us down to road level. It just happens to have a double handrail down the centre which makes it perfect for sliding down and holding on tightly at the same time. So most mornings I emerge to the road, having just slid down the banister, with a big smile on my dial! Talk about starting the day right :-)

Another way of starting each day on the right foot I employ is to dress up for my walks, which I mentioned last post. There’s something about putting on a pretty outfit complete with cute accessories that really do it for me. We sashay around town with our dog arm in arm, stopping at a cafe to have a cuppa and a chat, walking home around the lake noticing any changes in the weather or waves, watching as the bird population ebbs and flow, and chatting to any neighbours we pass. It’s a pretty great life.

I think the Spring energy found me yesterday, because I took a 10 kilometre hike. It felt like the breaking of the fast over Winter, and also my recovery from some niggling issues. We have emerged from our fallow time along with the rising of the light. My friend reminded me, we are almost up to 12 hours of daylight now. I am feeling the effects of the long walk today, but not as badly as I’d feared, so that’s a great way to start a new season.

I’ve taken to doing blind drawings i.e. drawing while not looking. Here is one I did with a blossom.

I recommend the practice as it takes all the pressure out of making something realistic, and you just get to have fun drawing. I find it nice way to start my creative day.

Dear baby leaves

Welcome to the world 

As you hang there

In all your fragility 

Your lime green light

Bathing the world

Do you know

How we look at you

And smile?

Telling us of life

Continuing on

A beacon for us

To follow 

Lifting our minds

Into the skies.

30/9/23 

Til next time,

Keep on creating!

Love,

Jazzy Jack

Some outfits I have made recently

 Hi all!

Welcome to my fashion parade.

Recently as I was working up to starting my blog again, I thought it might be easier to show my outfits.

So I set up a tripod near the front door and used it with a phone mount to quickly take a photo as I walked in from my morning outing.

Every morning Cris and I go out to a cafe with our dog Winter to exercise her (as we live in an apartment) and to spend time together. Cris says he is retired in the mornings. On the way home we walk near the lake and admire the nature. It’s a lovely habit. And I tend to dress up a bit for the fun of it. When we return home our apartment is so warm I usually get around in Summer gear.

So here are some examples of my recent Winter outfits (we live in Australia).

I’ve started out with a few things I’ve made. This first one is an old thrifted blanket that I made into a Japanese style apron. It is sooo warm. It was a mockup, but it’s turned out so well I have it in my normal wardrobe. I may dye it one day when it gets too filthy. I hand stitched it and used some old ecodyed silk to highlight the pockets.

The next item is a granny square vest I’ve been enjoying. Giving my outfits some colour during Winter.

I made the squares for a blanket for our bed, but ran out of patience, so put them together this way instead!

Oh yes, I also knitted the gloves I’m wearing.

This is actually a failed renovation. I bought this lovely woolen Men’s dressing gown for $5. I coloured in the piping with its distinctive white and navy. But every time I wore it it still felt too much like a dressing gown. Even though when I look at this photo it looks fine! So I was going to play with it a bit more but realised it isn’t on the straight grain and that threw me so much I chucked it in the fabric pile to be used another day. Maybe I’ll make it into a skirt.

I love this item which I knitted, I call the strangled octopus. It is able to be worn many ways, and just gives boring jackets a bit of personality.

I have a hat I knitted with a brim and I find it is super useful on windy sunny Winter days. So I thought I would crochet another one out of my head. Well, it was nearly a disaster! But we persevered, and although it is a massive hat, it did come in very handy when I went to the seaside.

And we finish with a few “normal” ones!

I hope you enjoyed that fashion show? Can you hear the cool music in your head and all the applause?!

A phrase I call my theme music is “Shine on you crazy diamond”. Maybe that is playing in your head right now?

Have a wonderful week my friends.

Til next time,

Keep on creating!

Love,

Jazzy Jack

AuDHD = ASD + ADHD

 Hello folks!

How about a little algebra to start the day!

No actually, I thought I would share something I’ve been toying with in and about my own brain.

You may know many years ago I was diagnosed with Aspergers as it was known at the time. Now of course it is called Autism or ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder).

I went along working out my life with this new information and experimenting with how much to tell the world. Also, how many accomodations I needed especially as a late diagnosed autistic.

I had become used to hiding all my sensitivities as I called them. And just not doing things if I thought it would be too much. Of course I did have a huge issue with my digestion for about six years prior to the birth of my kids which meant I couldn’t work, so it was pretty easy for me to hide away at home.

I got a bit better and went out to work again, and then got pregnant with two amazing boys over the next three years. So I stopped work again and had an excuse to be at home.

Of course raising kids as an autistic person is quite the undertaking due to the sensory overload, but my husband and I worked it out (lots of time off in the car looking at the lake!)

However it still seemed my brain was constantly at war with itself. I could never work out if I liked to live in the city or the country for example. One would seem super exciting only to eventually overwhelm, and the other would seem so calming only to eventually make me feel depressed. It was so annoying!

I’m sure you can see where this is going. I have a son who has been exploring his attention issues, and whether he has ADHD. The psychiatrist we saw totally dropped the ball in my opinion, so I ended up doing lots of Google diving for him. In the process I’m starting to realise I might have the same diagnosis.

When ADHD is combined with ASD (a very common coupling), it is termed AuDHD. 

So I am starting to see the way my brain pushes and pulls, and seems to contradict itself is actually my two “disorders” in conflict with themselves. But now I am identifying which moments are caused by which part of my brain.

For example: this morning I sat in one chair at the cafe table, then the sun was in my eyes, which annoyed my ASD brain, so I moved. This pleased my ADHD brain which likes stimulation and nice shiny new things. But my ASD brain then needed me to sit still and rest in the new spot. It’s like I can have a conversation between the two sides and they can play off each other. “Right, we’ve fixed the annoyance,  you’ve had your stimulation, so now you need to let me rest.”

And over the years even though I didn’t know it, this combination has helped me get out and about and do new things, and enjoy new things! But also helped me be more disciplined and able to learn things.

I also know that I feel happiest when both parts of my brain are satisfied.

I’m not sure how this will pan out in the future, but I do know just having this understanding has opened my eyes to myself in astonishing ways, and I feel like I’m really meeting and comprehending myself, and I feel more in control of my mind.

That swishy swirly contradictory angst has lessened. And that can only be a very Good Thing!

This morning my ASD brain suggested it was time to cut my hair because it was “SO ANNOYING!” And my ADHD brain was very happy with the idea of a new hairstyle. Can you tell I’m happy with the result?

As I rise from bed

In the morning 

I marvel

At how we stack

Our bones

Up into the sky

Hang out wobbly organs

Wrapped in muscle

And skin

And teeter into the world.

How confident we are

In our vulnerability.

19/11/22

‘Til next time,

Keep on creating!

Love,

Jazzy Jack

Well hello again!

Greetings my gorgeous ones.

I find I have had an 18 month hiatus from the good ol’ blog, even though I really didn’t mean to.

So fingers crossed I can start a new streak with this one.

The problem when you’ve had such a long break is there is so much to catch up on. But I think we’ll just try to jump on in and summarise the most important changes.

The things that come to mind, are our kids’ study activities.

Last year Miles managed to complete a Diploma in Engineering at our local Tech Collage. So he now has a qualification under his belt. But he enjoyed himself so much and had so many questions they couldn’t or wouldn’t answer, he has now taken himself off to Uni to do a double degree Bachelor of Mechanical Engineering and Physics. Which means he no longer lives at home, and he has to do his own cooking and cleaning! He is mostly loving his new life.

This year Aiden has chosen to follow in Miles’ footsteps and is currently studying at our Tech College for a Cert 3 in Laboratory Skills. He has had some difficulties with being around others due to his OCD, but has persevered and passed all his subjects last semester. So now he only has Chemistry to go!

We are so pleased with our homeschooled boys. They are both resourceful and brave, and still love learning. They are finding a lot of their fellow students are more jaded, which we put down to homeschooling.

So never let people tell you you won’t get into University if you have to remove yourself from the school system for whatever reason. We are evidence that it is possible, even if you have to find creative ways to get there. 

This is how my gorgeous boys look now, and for those who have followed for a long time, we were at our property Heartwoods.

I will leave it there for now and let these couple of lines start me off again.

And ‘til next time,

Keep on creating!

Love,

Jazzy Jack

Celebration Month

 Hi folks!

Look at this, it’s not even April and I’m writing again. What?

We have had a month of big birthdays, so I thought it would be fun to record some of the festivities here in the old blog.

It began back on the 7th of March where we left off, with my 60th birthday.

Here I am with my big pressie, a magical flute. I am wearing the “Quing” crown (Queen/King said ‘Kwing’)we get as the birthday person. The Quing gets to call the shots for the day.

Cutting my birthday cake on our night picnic in our campervan ‘Brumhilda’.

The next big celebration was Aiden’s on the 19th. He turned 18. His big present was an electric mountain bike. Man, was he looking forward to this one. He had already selected it as we had to make sure he liked it, and then had to wait…………!

Still clean

Glamour shots

Look at that smile

What it was made for…all dusty.

The very next day we had our 35th wedding anniversary. Yes, Cris had to restrain himself from urging me to hurry when pushing out Aiden. He just squeaked into his own day at 11pm. I was going as fast as I could.

To celebrate our day we took ourselves to the ‘Feared and Revered’ exhibition at the Nation Museum, which was in collaboration with The British Museum. We got to see some lovely statues and historical finds relating to ancient goddesses and mythological beings.

Some of my favourites were:

Sekhmet

Aphrodite/Venus rising from her bath

You know you have seen the real thing when you have seen the back.

Aboriginal Yawkyawk (complete with baby inside). I also love the shadows they made on the wall.

And coming in fast at the end of the month on the 24th, was Miles with his 21st birthday.

Here he is (looking very saintly) with his main present, a commuter ebike complete with belt drive. Can you tell he is studying engineering?

A family tradition on my side has been to be given an engraved knife on your 21st birthday.

Which then becomes the birthday knife. Up until now we have used mine, but here is Miles with his very own golden knife.

So that night at our night picnic we used it on his cake.

Even though it took a bit to light the candles on the windy night.  (We ended up only managing

half.)

I told you he looked saintly. Even his bike can walk on water.

The day after my birthday I wrote a poem. So I will leave you with these thoughts.

Here I sit

In a little patch of sun

Hiding from the wind 

The day after my 60th birthday 

And I feel my life 

Settling back around me 

Realising how much

It has loomed large 

In the distance

And now here I am

Safely on the other side.

The sun is still shining on me

And though the wind is blustery 

I can weather the storm.

All those swirling emotions 

Of gratitude and expectations 

And fear

Can all have a seat.

Big birthdays are full

Of ‘Do people love me?’

‘Will I die soon?’

‘How can I have the perfect day?’

‘Time is running out. How can I make

the most of the time left?’

‘My family is so precious 

and lovely to me.’

‘How can I not be a burden to them?’

Only now afterwards

Can I get some perspective 

And drop back down 

Into normal life.

Ahhh…

8/3/23

Til next time,

Keep on creating!

Love Jazzy Jack