A to Z poetry challenge 2021 - I

 

I feel a failure tonight

as I sit here in the park

bathing my stinging senses

with fountain splashes

and green scents

the reason is

I had to pull out

of a lake walk

with a special family friend

because I couldn't cope

with walking in a group

all my nerve endings

rose up and jangled

and I needed to remove myself

I hope I didn't

let the side down

sometimes doing

what feels right

also feels wrong

but if I can look after myself

this way

maybe I'm not a failure

after all.

17/9/21