Hello my beautiful friends. I write this as I embark on another episode in my life.
I have been told I have to come off my medication which helps with my sensory overload, because I had an unusual ECG. It means either the medication is mimicking the effects of a heart attack, or I've really had a heart attack!
Either way I need to reassess during these next six weeks as I live through the withdrawal symptoms, and as I find what is possible during my post medication life.
I have had periods of coping reasonably well off medication but this time I'm not given a choice. I feel my pain, tension, foggy head and allergies all returning after one day's reduction. Fortunately this time I have access to a great yoga teacher online, through a resource I found on Judith Style Crone's website. Sixtyandme have partnered with Cat Kabira from Bali who runs gentle online yoga classes. These have really helped me, and are the first I could manage, after trying many over the years.
So I may find I need to make changes with my blog, either reducing the frequency of interaction, or changing the content. Or things could remain the same. I don't really know at this stage. But I hope you will stick with me and be patient as I navigate this new landscape.
I'm looking at this as an opportunity for learning about my body, about new ways of being, and about being held in the small moments of time. It may be that the grand dramatic vision I have for myself has to take a back step for a while, or be realised in the sum of tiny steps I will be learning how to take.
What I find hardest is saying NO to opportunities and people asking for help, and learning how to balance my energies in an elegant way.
I leave you with this lovely statement my friend said to me when she heard the news:
You have within you the ability to cope - you have and you do and you can. You have a good awareness and its about cuing in early to those warning signs. That's why we were given breath - take a few minutes to breath and reconnect with yourself and your centre of peace. The universe is providing an opportunity to explore you without medication. Being human is about making mistakes rather than perfection - take the time to treat yourself gently, ease off and nurture your beautiful being.
I hope you will join me in this new direction of nurturing and reconnection.
'Til next time,
keep on creating and showing your beauty to the world,